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Tuesday, January 21, 2014

Sadness but no Excuses

I know I haven't had a new post since November.
I have had a very rough go since then. 
I like to use this blog to uplift and inspire all of you, and I 
Did not feel I could do that with what I was going through.
I'm still not in good mental condition. 
I have been diagnosed with Depression this past week.
I have been thinking about this blog for a while and wondering how
Could I possibly write about anything inspiring.
What I have come up with is to just be here. Be an ear if you need one, 
Be a voice to say what you may not be able to say. 
I may change the title soon. As I'm not a housewife at this time. 
I am a mom, a friend, a daughter and a sister.
I want to be a wife, I really do. And I am struggling with that at this time.
But for reasons beyond my control that isn't so anymore.

I have seen so many on social media lately going through a tough
Time as well. Major changes in our life do cause stress and hardships.
When the life you knew suddenly changes that can be one of the hardest things
You will face. Some or most of you may be facing depression such as me.
What do you do?
I am seeking help from a counselor, but the most important thing is to get out.
Out of bed, out of the house, and out of your own way.
This is hard yes, I know. 
Somedays I do stay in bed longer than I should. I hear that voice telling me to get
Up. At times it's my inner voice and at times it's my own 12 year old son.
He says, mom it's after 1 I have the coffe pot on, get up and I will make you a cup.
So I do. He is my strength, my purpose when I feel I have none.
There are days I need to go get groceries, and I really really don't want too. But I go. 
It's hard, so hard to face doing things I did with my husband that now I do alone.
But I go. In the long run it will have been good for me. 
And getting out of your own way, I sit some days and do nothing but watch tv or read.
I don't want to talk on the phone I don't want to leave the house, nothing.
But you have to get up, do dishes, sweep the floor, make yourself eat. 
Don't have excuses for laying down and diying. Life does go on.
It may be awhile before your genuine smile comes back. 
I say fake it till you make it, right? 
But just don't do nothing, don't let your excuses have excuses.


  1. Praying for you girl. One day at a time, right? You know I'm here if ya need me.

  2. Thank you, yes it is one day at a time. I know how to reach you if I need anything :)