Stress and Anxiety

I know i don't write often on this blog any more.
When it started it was a much needed outlet for my creativity.
Now I'm out-letting all over the internet. haha
I'm writing my next book and so when I do feel up to writing that gets
most of my attention.
I have my YouTube channel and the editing process of that can
bog me down.
But i felt the urge to blog today. There is a topic on my mind, Stress.

Most of you may not know this but i suffer from depression. It comes and goes.
But i have dealt with it since some where around my pre-teens.
I am very good at hiding it. Most who know my personally probably would not guess this.
I do not take medicine for it. I am good at powering through. I do use essential oils though.
They help. But I mostly use them for the anxiety.

Depression goes with what I wanted to talk about,
but this isn't just a post about depression.
Like i said I wanted to discuss Stress.

I am planning a cruise with my sister and my 2 best friends.
That sounds fun right? It is. But it can be stressful if you have a mental
illness too.
I have noticed in the last week that I am very emotional. I can cry at the drop of a hat if i let
myself. I have been trying to keep my emotions reigned in.
Because I do know that its stress related.

If you have a mental illness like me, and it is keeping you from enjoying
something like a fun trip, or a vacation, or just life in general, try to remind your self this:
LIFE IS MEANT TO BE LIVED. ITS MEANT TO BE FUN AND ENJOYABLE.

Try to push through. Remind yourself that life can get in the way if we let it.
We should all be happy. Regardless of your situation. Regardless of your fiances.
Just be happy. BE YOURSELF.
Push the Stress and Anxiety away. Push it out.
If you need to, do it physically.
Raise your hands, take a deep breath, exhale and push away from your body.
Send that negativity out away from you.
Put one foot forward and go from there.

Okay, Crystal you think that is going to fix me? Fix my life? Push the air away?

I admit, that may not "fix" you. Did saying that help my emotions? No.
But its a start. We have to start somewhere. And its a mind set.
Your mind set is everything. TRUST ME.
So just give it a try. I hope it helps you at least a little.


(p.s. Yes i know that sometimes I don't capitialize my i's..There is a reason for this.)

Reasons why NOT to live in the Big Brother house

As a big brother fan getting the chance to be on the show and win half a mill seems like a fun idea.
Buuuut (as Nicole would say), I have 5 reasons why you might NOT want to go for an extended stay in the ole BB house.

Reason #1
If your not big on touching.
They literally Hug after each ceremony. Lots of FRIENDSHIP going around with hugs several times a week. To opt out of a hug could, and does, throw a red flag. And that alone might get you sent packing.

Reason #2 If you aren't into sharing your things.
It is very common to see house guests wearing someone else's clothes or hats. I mean hey, you can't fit very many changes into those BB logo duffle bags. So choices get limited...unless you shop your neighbors bag..Roommate is closer to the correct word. But you get the gist.

Reason #3 If you enjoy tv or movies or video games...ie any thing remotely fun.
Forget staying up all night to enjoy the latest video game after standing in line for a midnight release. Your not leaving the house any time soon..If your lucky that is.
You are cut off from the outside world for the duration of your stay. There is also the fact that no where in that house will you find a tv.

Reason #4 If you enjoy privacy, this house ain't for you.
There are tons of camera's on you every second of every day. Yes, Even in the bathroom. Let me just say, If you haven't even let your momma see you undressed since you hit puberty, you should probably keep out of the big brother house.

And finally Reason #5 that you might NOT want to live in the big brother house is...If your not into drama..
Drama drama drama...it's why we all watch. Gotta see that drama.
If you were locked in a house with that many diverse personalities for the summer you might create a little drama just for kicks. Am I right?
So if drama just isn't your scene, go for a fun Summer on the sofa watching with the rest of us.

Cause hey, big brother is the best summer tv show!