Ready set go!

So I have been preparing to try my hand at NaNoWriMo this year.
If you forgot what it is, it is National Novel Writing Month.
It comes around every November!
I am excited to spend the month on writing.
But there will be lots of temptation to stray my mind.
Why?
Well Breaking Dawn hits theaters in only 19 days!
But I will just have to keep focused.
I have my idea.
(what would you choose, Love or Money?)
My main characters have been named.
I even have a working title finally.
The rest will just come to me as my fingers hit the keys.

If you want to join in check out this website.
http://www.nanowrimo.org/en/dashboard
There are regional get together's if you need that for extra motivation!
I start at midnight tonight.
Ready
Set
Go!

Quite a difference

I was going to write about Query's for my letter Q.
Give tips and info I have learned lately through
my research.

But tonight I stumbled upon a letter I wrote myself,
probably a year and half ago.
It was just a letter to Me.
And I sat and read through it.
Feeling very proud of myself.

I was in a state of confusion and seemingly lost.
I was an angry person at that time.
And I knew that meant I needed a change in my life.
A Big One.

I did have lots of family and friends.
I enjoyed very much being a cub scout leader
and loved my 2 part time jobs.

Yet, I was not completely fulfilled and happy.
Upon discussing with my husband we learned
both of were feeling a change was a good idea.
So we took caution to the wind and made that leap.
We sacrificed and moved.
It took the better part of a year for us to be financially on our feet.

But we knew that we were better off.

I was needing creativity and motivation.
I feel that I have found it.
I do feel much happier.
I have finally wrote a manuscript that I am so proud of.
I am trying my hand at one of my other hobbies,
Photography, to see if I can build on it.

Those were things that I had on my check list.
Check
and
check

A thing that is hard for some to do
is to make that first blind step.
Pick up your foot and set it back down in unknown waters.
Once you do it though You may find that you are so glad you did.

So dream bigger, dream More,
and follow them to where ever they may take you.
You will find, it might just make
all the difference.

October Fun

October is here!
It is one of my favorite months.

One reason I like this month is because its my husband's birthday month!
Happy Birthday Babe.

a few of the pumpkins from last year

We have very much enjoyed Halloween the past few years.
Before moving here last year we did have a tradition.
We would attend the trunk-a-ween
then go home and hand out candy to most of the same kids
we had just seen.

Actual picture of our maze in town

Our family started a tradition 3 years ago that we all

now look forward to.

We have a pumpkin carvin party.

Even adding a costume contest last year.

This year we are not allowed to use the patterns

you can pick up at Walmart.

I am hoping to get to the corn maze soon.

Who wouldn't want to try to get lost in a giant corn maze?

The leaves are falling and harvest festivals abound!
Getting ready for a new year.

Speaking of new.
My husband and I are trying to start a photography business.
I am excited for this venture and hope we get to
help families make memories that will last them a lifetime.

Enjoy this beautiful fall season!

Poor me..

I get so annoyed  when people throw themselves a pity party.

Get off your butt and do something about it.
The longer you sit there in that chair and wine about it
the longer it will be before you are happy.


I have learned of Poor Me Syndrome.
Oh boy, is this for real?
It now has a title?

This way of thinking is so completely unhealthy.
It definitely leads to depression.
My thoughts on it and how to pull your self out are
as follows:

When someone offers advice and ideas.
The least you can do is check on it.
Try it out.
Come up with your own ideas as well.

But whatever you do,
DO NOT just say,
I can't.
NO.
No one will help me.

Help your self.
Give it a try.
Call and ask questions.
IT NEVER HURTS TO ASK.

It does how ever hurt to do nothing.
Who does it hurt?
It hurts YOU.

You and you alone.

Rise to the challenge.
Get out there and do your best.
You will feel great about your self afterwards.
Once you accomplished the feat,
even if you got a little help.
You will feel great.
You will have self worth.

But please give it a go,
before you jump on the
Can't train.

Because I refuse to ride CAN'T lines.
Can't goes no where.

I take the CAN DO trolley!

Never again

If today was your last day..

What would you do?
Would you be happy with what you have done?

Would you know you were the person you wanted to be?
Is there something you would change?

Did you do all that you wanted?

Would you call up old friends?
Would you pray?
Would you cry?
Would you be satisfied?

If knowing all these things you
could never do again what would you pick?

I would sing,
I would be proud of my son
and how I have raised him.
I think that I am happy with who I became.
If It was the last day there would be no time
to change anything. But I am satisfied and have made
my changes already.
No I did not do all that I wanted.
I want to travel.
I would not call up old friends because I
would play with my so and love my husband.
I would cry, because I always cry.
When I went to bed at night I would pray.
Just like I do every night before going to sleep.

I hope all of you know exactly what you would
do, if today was your last day.

Moving on.

We all have things in our life that sometimes we have to let go.
The question always is,  when is the right time
to move on?

Has your job been stressful for a while now?
Are you falling out with your friend?
Is that person you are dating really into you?
Does the town you live in have potential?

These are all very good questions.
And sometimes they float around in our heads.
For a while now, they might have been nagging at you.

Are you brave enough to answer them?
It does take an inner strength to be honest with ones self.


I have always been a strong willed person.
Which causes me to not be able to relate with those who aren't,
at times.

I just want to take a person and shake them.
Slap the wake up call right out of them.

I want to...But I didn't say that I do that.

When is the right time to move on?
Well I think everyone has to ask that and choose for them self.
But I would say for me the time would be when I no longer
feel that I am myself anymore.



If I could not recognize myself

then I need to fix that.
If I were very depressed and cried a lot.
That might be a good sign as well.

Personally when I decided that I needed a change
it was because I noticed a lot of anger in myself.
I would just yell out at someone for no reason.
*My poor dear husband, he had the brunt of it most the time.

But he bared with me, and we made a change.
Moving on doesn't mean moving away,
if you do not want that.
Move on from only the parts that is time for.

Do you have anything that needs to be left

on the road side while you happily walk away?

sometimes you have to put that burden down. 

Little things



Who says you can't go home?


Life takes us all places that we didn't know we would go.

We grow and change.
Leave home or stay,

Those who leave home
Hopefully can think fondly on it.

 My younger days were different
Simpler
Slower.

Dirty bare feet
Dirt roads
Cats and dogs



Sounds of dad working on an old beater
Mom hanging laundry on the line
Little brother or sister stealing your toys
Then running away as fast as their tiny feet can go.

Home still lives in songs and smells
Memories spring from even the littlest things

I went back home this weekend.
Its nice to see old friends and family.
It's also nice when even though I miss
everyone terribly,
I am still happy to come back to my new place.

There is a lot of poverty where we are from.
Which makes it hard to see.
But it feels good to grow and change.

If you have doubts I just would like to
encourage you.
It can be done.
You can enable a change in your life,
for the good.
For the betterment of your life.
Don't be scared.
With God all things are possible.

It is nice to have my memories too.

Has this happen to anyone else?